Archive for self-doubt

Serial Entrepreneur Part 3…4….5

Posted in Entrepreneur, Essential Oils, Finding a Job, JenDelicious Cupcakes, Personal, Photography, self-employment with tags , , , , , , on June 29, 2016 by JenDelicious Cupcakes

Feel like I’m falling and I can’t get up!

So I think I must be a little crazy.  I keep trying all these new ideas in the hopes that one will take off and show me the way to make enough money to help support my family yet keep me from having to go back into the traditional workforce.  In the last two years since my last post (wow!) my cupcake business is still alive, barely.  My real estate photography business is alive…again barely.  My Choffy business totally went under…but that’s partly because the company changed the way they distribute their product and partly because sales is just not my thing.

I realized these other efforts were actually costing me money so I’ve started yet another business from home.  I work part time for a business broker doing a lot of his routine admin work and marketing functions so he can focus on the sales part of his business.  I truly enjoy this because I like my boss who is amazing to work with. Also this business doesn’t require me to do any sales, I can set my hours and work at my own pace.  I don’t make a ton of money doing it but it’s paying for my daughter’s braces, so every little bit helps.

I’ve also recently started using essential oils and in order to receive a discount on my products, I decided to become a wellness advocate.  I’m not making much at this because I just don’t like to sell stuff but I’m finding that I really am starting to believe in the power of these products. My husband and girls are believers too.  My upline leadership believes that if we just talk about how we use the products and what we like about the products, that will do a lot the sales work for us.  I guess we’ll see.

After several years of doing this entrepreneur thing…I’m still trying to figure it out.  I really need to find a better way to make money that isn’t tied to someone else’s schedule. In order to do that, I guess I need to figure out what type of business is my strongest suit, makes me reasonably happy and pursue that.  Having 5 or 6 micro businesses is definitely not making me any money right now.  It’s just making me tired, overwhelmed and frustrated.  It doesn’t help that I’m trying to work on my MBA at the same time.

Unemployment… the first week

Posted in Entrepreneur, Family, Finding a Job, Military, Personal, self-employment, unemployment, write a book with tags , , , , , , , , on October 6, 2010 by JenDelicious Cupcakes

Today is the end of the first full week of being unemployed.  I’m not sure how I really feel about being unemployed yet.  Part of me likes spending quality time with my kids and a part of me misses the camaraderie of working with other adults to solve common problems.  In the last week, I’ve revamped my resume more times that I care to admit and I’m not sure it’s any better than it was.  I’ve searched the same job boards over and over trying to figure out what’s out there and what I want to do.  On a positive note, I’ve had a couple of recruiters call me about jobs.   There is one that I would jump on in a heartbeat but there is a big problem with it because it is in another city  and would require us to relocate.  There is NO way we could move right now because we are so far underwater on our home, we’d never be able to sell it for what we owe and foreclosure/short sale is not an option in my profession.  Not to mention my husband would also have to find another job.  He’s a Sharepoint developer so odds are he wouldn’t have a problem but he doesn’t like change and is already pushing back on any discussion of moving.

Over the last week, I haven’t really explored the home-based business idea any further because I just don’t know that I could really make enough money in the near term to make it worthwhile.  I have really been considering writing a book about my family though.  I’d probably have to write it from a fictional perspective just to protect my crazy family and their “sensibilities.”   I can’t tell you how many times I’ve told people the story of my family and they always tell me I have a reality show or a Lifetime movie (or three) in the making!

On the other side of this equation, there are positives to being home.  I’ve started walking my children to and from school and I have the sore muscles to prove it. I’ve had some free time and started exploring photography of the local flora and fauna.  The heron at the top of this file was visiting our pond yesterday morning.  I watched him catch a fish only to have a hawk steal it from him!  I’m still working towards completing my BA in Marketing and have about 9 classes before I finish.  I really enjoy my marketing classes and maybe someday can make money doing that.  This first full week of unemployment has not really helped me figure out what I want to do but it is allowing me to take care of myself a little more, explore things that I’ve never had the time to explore and continue my education without having to rush my studies!  I would say the first week has been much more productive and interesting than I thought it would be.

3 Work Days Left

Posted in Eldercare, Entrepreneur, Finding a Job, Military, Personal, Pointerware, self-employment with tags , , , , , , on September 24, 2010 by JenDelicious Cupcakes

My last day at my job is this coming Wednesday and I find myself completely confused about what to pursue as far as a line of work. Having worked for over 20 years in or with the military, I’m finding it difficult to make the decision to strike out on my own. I am still unclear about what I want to pursue with regards to a business. I have several ideas thanks to my family… but I am filled with self-doubt about my capabilities to start and grow a business.

My family and friends are all extremely supportive and outline what they see as my skills that would allow me to be successful as a business owner. In the 30 minute glow after our conversations, I fully believe them and am totally motivated to pursue my own business… but after the glow wears off… I am back in the abyss that is clouded by self-doubt. The military provided me with an arsenal of tools and skills that are extremely valuable in running my own business…I know this… but it doesn’t change the fact that I am afraid of failure. I know that to be successful, I am going to have to climb out of the abyss and constantly tell myself “I know I can do this.”   I just have to find it within myself to take that first step.

Ideas are still swirling in my head.  I like the idea of teaching adult learners different computing skills. I also have been thinking about how to help seniors manage the monthly bills and other basic finances.  I have a friend in banking that works in a retirement community and she was describing how several elderly folks come into the bank two or three times a day, completely forgetting either what they came for or the fact that they had already been there several times for the same thing.   I really think some sort of business helping the elderly might be where my niche is, I just don’t want to get into house cleaning or personal care services.   I’ve always loved numbers, helping people understand where their money is and I really don’t mind the mundane chores like filing benefit claims… so maybe that’s something I could do in addition to teaching computer classes. I’ve seen some really cool software that would really be helpful for elderly folks who don’t have a lot of computer knowledge but would still like to connect with their families via email.  This software is made by a company called Pointerware and it really makes running a computer so easy for folks that might not be computer savvy. I’ve thought about marketing this software along with selling computers with touchscreens with the software pre-installed but am not really sure how to make that happen.

So, that’s where we stand today… I just hope I’m not pushed into doing something I don’t want to do… I guess the only way that will happen is if I just sit around and do nothing.